Tuesday, May 27, 2008
take all the broken dreams away
nothing excites me. going to work bores me, but knocking off from work doesnt make me feel any bit of excitement though i should feel like "YAY WORK IS OVER I CAN GET AWAY FINALLY~~" but nooo, that isnt the case.
feeling really sleepy everyday and often i would just close my eyes to catch a few winks which looking at the computer or go for a 5 min toilet break haha. i've been slacking too much and my workload is piling up lol but that didnt stop me to stop slacking though hee. i'll just slack abit lesser than usual alright.
i've been thinking so much these days. what's right and what's wrong. but just, i cant come to a conclusion or maybe i just choose to avoid the conclusion because i very well know what's gonna happen. from the start, everything was a mistake and it shouldnt even have happened. nothing's changing =)
and i think it's real time i should stop interfering into other stuffs that i shouldn't be doing. i'm a listener, but i cant advice well. and i know how frustrating it is to be talking to someone who just listens and listens and listens when you're damn down and somehow it just seemed like you're talking to yourself because the person goes "ya", "and then?", "omg, how can like that..", "how arh..", "okay". and when you get sick of them, you excuse yourself saying you need the toilet hahaha. im sorry people, i really dont know how to console but but my shoulder would be nice to lean on :D
ahh what crap, why did i even talked about stuff like that. and once again i'm thinking whether i'm giving in too much into everything - maintaining family ties, friendships yadayadayada. somehow i dont see other people doing all that i've done or maybe i just couldnt see it. ahhhhh today is a tired day and i feel crappy as usual. i'm going to have an early night, i have so much to do and i'm so not looking forward to anything. i'm just waiting for the days to just pass by, and hope payday comes soon and maybe i COULD do some retail therapy.
and yarh i removed the navy blue polish from my nails because i wanna cut my nails because i dont wanna hurt my piano and now i look like as if im poisoned. next (emo) colour? how about red since elmo's red. hahaha.
nuhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just no colour will do.
nothing excites me. going to work bores me, but knocking off from work doesnt make me feel any bit of excitement though i should feel like "YAY WORK IS OVER I CAN GET AWAY FINALLY~~" but nooo, that isnt the case.
feeling really sleepy everyday and often i would just close my eyes to catch a few winks which looking at the computer or go for a 5 min toilet break haha. i've been slacking too much and my workload is piling up lol but that didnt stop me to stop slacking though hee. i'll just slack abit lesser than usual alright.
i've been thinking so much these days. what's right and what's wrong. but just, i cant come to a conclusion or maybe i just choose to avoid the conclusion because i very well know what's gonna happen. from the start, everything was a mistake and it shouldnt even have happened. nothing's changing =)
and i think it's real time i should stop interfering into other stuffs that i shouldn't be doing. i'm a listener, but i cant advice well. and i know how frustrating it is to be talking to someone who just listens and listens and listens when you're damn down and somehow it just seemed like you're talking to yourself because the person goes "ya", "and then?", "omg, how can like that..", "how arh..", "okay". and when you get sick of them, you excuse yourself saying you need the toilet hahaha. im sorry people, i really dont know how to console but but my shoulder would be nice to lean on :D
ahh what crap, why did i even talked about stuff like that. and once again i'm thinking whether i'm giving in too much into everything - maintaining family ties, friendships yadayadayada. somehow i dont see other people doing all that i've done or maybe i just couldnt see it. ahhhhh today is a tired day and i feel crappy as usual. i'm going to have an early night, i have so much to do and i'm so not looking forward to anything. i'm just waiting for the days to just pass by, and hope payday comes soon and maybe i COULD do some retail therapy.
and yarh i removed the navy blue polish from my nails because i wanna cut my nails because i dont wanna hurt my piano and now i look like as if im poisoned. next (emo) colour? how about red since elmo's red. hahaha.
nuhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just no colour will do.
someone who listens and someone who i can call who isnt afraid of love to share.
