Saturday, February 16, 2008
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army is such that you get suckd into this system of regime regime regime (discipline o.o) which requires you t be in camp for 5-6days a week, which consequences t zilch contact w t world outside this pathetic installment which spans 2 dmn yrs.
nice.
okay fck thr's t phone, but blaa hardly anyone has t diligence ? t call each nd evryone of your friend up nd ask "hey what s up ! i'm kinda stuckd in camp which means i cn only catch you guys this weekend but ohh you aint free hm okay hw's life ohh haahh i know like wtf hw am i supposd t answr that qn oo yeahh yeahh hur you needa go hurr alright soo er we meet up soon alright ? yeahh sure seeya" lol.
you're slowly slippg away, losing your friends one by one as you faltr furthr nd furthr from their respective or rathr once similar frequencies, so much so that whn you rly get t meetup, its so disappointg that you're reduced t awkward smiles laughtr rly *arkk arkk comments followd by more awkward hahahaas nd thn deadtense silence.
lol meet up during weekends laa okayokayokay ?! we go hav dinner tgt :D
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its dmn fckg hard t type play game wadevaa bc i needa scratch t back of my hands nd legs evry millisecond. k field camp was smtg new.
6 days out in t foilage of tekong, learng hw t blend as one w nature, t move w as little movement as possible, t be disciplined enough t remain in a single spot w\o fidgettg excessively, t properly conduct mini-ops nd missions, basic attackg tactics nd formations, in short, t become more, a soldier.
okay i was two steps into concludeg that field camp's fun overall, but thn thoughts of camopaint rats ants termites mosquitoes mr.sun mr.3am-6am-fckg-cold-wind proneg-for-dono-hw-long diggshellscrap leopardcrawlbackcrawl cleanrifle kennapumplikefck nd t list goes on nd i think otherwise. but okay field camp is fun.
halffck i cnt make up my mind prolly bc i'v lost my mental ability t think critically judge accurately nd make precise decisions othr that knowg hw t respond t "is that clear;yes sir is that clear!;yes sir understand; yes sir"
blaa sian
sian t t point that i cn jst sit in front of t com nd stare at my desktop screen, dmn tired but i jst dnt wana go nd sleep bc i dnt want t next day t come bc that means i'v got only 1 day left bfore i book in. its rly sad lol, constantly countg t days nights hours left till book out whn your're stuck in camp, nd thn hopeg like a fool that time wld take its time nd sunday wnt come so quickly.
dmn siann also like im practically camera-less evryday nd im jst too plain lazy t wana switch back t my original phone during t fckg short bookout hours, thn all t blog post all no pictures cb dmn boring. words words words
arh fck lost my train of thoughts lol sick &tiredd of blogging bout hw fckd up life cn get HAAHH I JST RMBRD SMTG.
two months ago whn eccentric eug decided t start this LOL blog, nd declareg that its gng t be our blog, i was lmaog bc back thn t me a guy who blogs is a pussy (lol my sargeant evryday call ppl pussy).
nd look, hw far i'v came from that pussy. i kindaa rmbrd too that i promisd nt t use t blog like certain ppl, but t blog t make ppl happy. haahh hw ppl change. okay acty i dint change in fact i'v been contradictg myself all my life, like a soldier who plants mines meant for enemies only t stumble onto them despite markg a huge mental "X" ovr t dangr areas.
mtv insomnia's gettg on my nerves w its selection of mvs, like fck, ppl alrd in likefck mood thn still dono hw t play notlikefck mvs.
lol i also rmbrd hw i alw went arnd tellg ppl t nt let yourself slip into moods of despair nd -ves
nd yet imma constantly fallg prey t exactly what i preachd against.
lol ey you read till here liao, will feel fckd up nt lol like ey fck you la tw cb talkg crap siaa.
LOLL srry but lol okay i jst unloaded a whole load of crap. so if any of you all think i'm gng bonkrs thn cn ease alittle bc most of t above's rubbish
isnt that what you all alw say "whatevr tw say is crap" ey no that s what i alw say. "most of what i say is crap, but some of them's real so its up t you t decide which is real nd which isnt." lol nd thn youll go what fck you talk so much cock hw i know aiya heck care. tio bohh lol so most of t time whatevr i say goes in one ear nd comes out t othr 小孩不笨. but t tell you honestly, acty i rly dnt know whichevr crap i crappd abt is real nd which is fake, or rathr i'm kinda unclear whethr what i spewd was for you all t hear anot so t prevent you all from anyhell thinkg ill jst end most of my presidential speeches w "whatevr i said is crap" so you all will dulan thn fck care. lalalaa thn again you wnt know whethr what i said shld be taken as crap or nt bc maybe me tellg you that what i said is crap might jst be crap. LOLL BLUR LIAO BOHHH hmm somedays like tdy i miss babbleg ovr t phone like blaa blaa blaaaaaaaaa thn k 爽快. buddn evryone's got their life -mj nw. soo its jst a whole truckload of crap.
sleep?
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