happy





For all this time
I've been loving you girl
Oh yes I have
And ever since the day you left me here alone
I've been trying to find
Oh the reason why

So if I did something wrong please tell me
I wanna understand
Cos I don't want this love
To ever end

Chorus:
And I swear
If you come back in my life
I'll be there til the end of time (back to me, back to me, back to my life) oh yeah
And I swear
I'll keep you right by my side
Cos baby you're the one I want (back to me, back to me, back to my life)
oh yes you are

I watched you go
You've taken my heart with you
Oh yes you did
Everytime I tried to reach you on the phone
Baby you're never there
Girl you're never home

So if I did something wrong please tell me
I wanna understand
Cos I don't want this love
To ever end
No no no no

Maybe I didn't know
How to show it
And maybe I didn't know
What to say
But this time I won't disguise
Then we can build our lives
And we can be as one

wonder hw's it lik t jump off a building

they say you die halfway bc you're too afraid
they you die the sec bfore you hit the grnd

they say your whole life flashes across you in tht few seconds you tumble through the air
they say you'll regret halfway through


i wonder hw its lik t slam into the grnd,
slowmo, your skull smashes, caves in your insides explode
your bones snap, your body recoils against the impact, reverberating.

tht last exhale, hhhhh. your eyes, wide open, mouth gaping. lifeless


is 8 storeys high enough ? wht if i dnt die ?

This beautiful city seems empty.
All the people in the world
and you can still feel lonely.
What's the point of having it all
without the person you love.

Sometimes you just need to start again
in order to fly





Used to dream bout being a millionaire, without a care
But if I'm seeing my dreams and you aren't there
Cause it's over, that just won't be fair, darling
Rather be a poor woman living on the street, no food to eat
Cause I don't want nobody if I have it cry
Cause it's over when you say goodbye

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

Now I see myself through different eyes, it's no surprise
Being alone would make you realize
When it's over, all in love is fair
I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

I know I push you away
What can I do that will say how I love
Take these material things
They don't mean nothing
It's you that I want

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone
(I shoulda been there, I should been there, I shoulda shoulda)

All at once, I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything now that you're gone
From above, seems I had it all
But it doesn't mean anything since you're gone

its like someone just squeezed your heart till it stopped.
its like being constricted by a python

death is slow,
starts by coiling around you unsuspiciously,
unsuspecting, you frown,
before you knw it, you're totally encased wrapped in this 200kg heavy leather muscle rope.

you breath, but your lungs jst wnt expand you cant take in any air at all.
and w each exhale, as your lungs collapse
Death takes full advantage of your insecurities

your moment of weakness,
constricts, squeezes tighter.

till your eyes roll backwards till you gag till your knuckles start turn white.

you gasp gag you cnt fckg breathe, the eyes of the python so unforgiving, glistens

your mind racing, going hyperdrive in the mad rush to obey your basic instinct of survival, to get out of this mess you're in. understatement.

too powerful, too weak, cnt break out, cnt

you start t slip away, falling into this black endless hole, falling fallin fallin

w yr last breath yr soul leaves you, slacks
your body empty, jst a an empty carrier.

the snapping of bones under skin and muscle, blood runs out of your ears, yr eyes, now white.

inhumane. Death




i
want
to
die,

tell me how

its crazy how we cn be bck in each othr's arms t split second we fall apart, :DD
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realise,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that its forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go
Cause when you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.





time and time again you kill me,
each time reaching a new low,
take it in,
gasp for breath,

one last time,
drown,
because you're not coming back.





















its been a long time since i wore t furried brows and green and black camo creamed face, shouting at the top of my voice in the middle of heated gunfire, giving commands to my men to move advance flank yada

getting all roughed up, dirtied and all into the mood for Ex HAWK was pretty tough. the first week of the ps course ops phase was jammed packed with lectures and lessons and more lessons. we were sleeping at 11 evry night and having to wake up at 530 for a upped 5BX was crazy. it was torture to survive on only 5 hours plus of sleep plus having to endure full day lectures and also having to study for tests blaa blaaaa

the second week was hell for everyone except the people from ops units. the load we carried on our missions was unthinkable and its quite amazing i survived. i mean its not the first time lol. we surprise ourselves always, when we push our limits, where we thought we wouldnt make it, but the determination and unconscious perservance despite the initial rants pulled us through and we emerge even stronger, even more confident of our ability, makes us wonder where our limit lies.

in short, ps course serves to prepare us to become platoon sergeants, leaders of 28 men, to ready ourselves to take up the ardous tasks as an advanced soldier out in the battlefield, as well as in the adminstration in camp.


lol sounds impressive right ? but ask me again in person and i might just shyt you in the face, totally contradicting whatever i just said. hm but i'm starting to feel more happy for myself because i was given the chance to go for this course and damn although i wasnt gurung enough to be super on, and i'm confident to say i've learnt valuable lessons, met precious new friends and became a stronger soldier mentally and physically.

lol but i was freaking complaining about the five day four night ex hawk, because of
1. ITS FREAKING FIVE DAYS FOUR NIGHTS
we totally gave a new meaning to 'dirty' after wearing only one pair of uniform for four days straight. blaaa only guys whom been through army will know how dirty is dirty, mucky hair black nails oily face gunk everywhere yada

2. and its ironic, going for a ps course i never held a ps appointment at all throughout the course o.o
i was the sect comd for the first week admin (sai gang), and i did pc x2, medic x3, sect comd x2 and m2o3 x2 times throughout the missions for ex hawk. manpacking the stretcher bashing through vegetation and doing fire movement with the sect comd bag plus the imba lbv load we carry is crazy. but being pc twice was an eye opener for me because we got to plan ops orders give ops orders come out with the entire battle plan etc its dmn crazy i tell you but dmn interesting cant say here later mindef charge me

bleah tiredd i acty booked out last night eleven brought all my stuff back. i had to be in plc by 630 today but the next moment i opened my eyes after going to bed was to a bright sky and my mum tapping me "arent you supposed to be in camp ?" SEVEN FIFTEEN AM ! WTF lol i hurried my ass out cabbed down 23 bucks reached at 8 lol attendance put as late the warrant officer wanted us to see him after our graduation ceremony but he totally forgot haahhh

too lazy to carry on anymore, no soccer tmr :( i wanna kick some ball to take my mind of things clear up refresh you know. maybe i'll test out my adizeros tmr at the reservoir k i promise it wouldnt be just empty talk, run it away

nights guys



I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Laying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

one more week t go,

when love just isnt enough,
when the mind betrays,
where the heart aches.

There’s some things we don’t talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go

Picture you’re the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go

We’re pulling apart and coming together again and again
We’re growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go
Don’t let me go

gonee

behave yourself k

in 34 hours i'd wouldnt be here
in 12 hours i'd be doing last minute shopping at beach road
in 7 hours i might be running my lungs out at the reservoir
in 4 hours i might be dreaming
in 2 hours i'd cry myself to sleep
in 10 hours i'd be eating lunch at home
in 16 hours i'd be sleeping the rest of the day away
in 24 hours i'd still be listening to the same song
in 33 hours i'd be on a cab


漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

you happy nt ?

INSOMNIA



To kiss and tell


GAAAWD one week has past arghhh suck shyt brrt

yarh in case you havnt knwn "D" tekong boys have been on leave for t past week, next week too.

lol but last week was fun dng crazy stuff k nt exactly crazy but we won this at ws arcade lmao

its t machine you knw $1-1-try t scope up sweets\candy\chocolates\boxes and thn you decide t release them on this two level platform, nd t top lvl moves bck nd forth so if you get lucky it pushes t goodies off t lower platform into yr catch, you knw which one i talkg abt right rarh

i was super sceptical at first rantg abt it being a waste of money its only out t run you dry cheat money yadayadaa but she was being whiney swiney but she gave me t megawatt smile nd evrytg caved nd i gave in. lol it lookd bleak but aftr 35 bucks nd a stroke of luck, TADAAA













nd tgt w t big prize came a huge bag of sweets toys chocolates lmao madd i dint knew thr was so much until i startg digging them out.
nd thr were 4 boxes of this dino collectables ,












which i assembled whilst forceg sugarless ice mocha dwn my throat at coffee clubz














nd she combs whtevr hair thr is on stitch's head haah





TIMEEE T PARTYYY

maybe we shld do a bbq steph are you readg this lalalaa maybe jst a mini one

we cld open two pits bbq fastr more cheeken wings nd xiang chang although we'll crave for t curry, bee hoon, spaghetti probably we cld try dng w\o them (less trouble for tng mama)

on second thoughts, ignore wht i jst said whahaaaaha



wht else cn we do ?

nightcyclingsoccerbasketballsentosavolleyballmindcafeKUKUPfishgprawngprawngfishgthnbbqstillgotwhat



oh yarh nd i want t hav supper at 85, long time we did so.
HW BOUT TMR NIGHT !?

1. i'm on fb ! agn
2. field camp's ovr !
3. we watched taken
4. i thought it wld be nice, turnd out t be fantastic
5. we watched horsemen
6. thought it'd be exciteg, turnd out t be gross nd dumb, nd i figured out t twist at t end long before, nd i was lik "t last horseman is his ___ 100% confirm serious" nd jodie was lik "hw you knw" nd i was lik "you see lor"
7. jodie doesnt pay attention during movies
8. we watchd international
9. thought it'd be interestg
10. turnd out t be super boring, went in nt knwg anytg abt t film, went out regrettg knwg watchg t film
11. we were supposd t catch weapon x but thr were only first 3 row seats z
12. jodie went on a shoppg spree
13. we're gng t watch wolverine
14. we're gng t eat teppanyaki, agn
15. i'm dng book-in tdy :l


Touch My Hand - David Archuleta

i'll nv get t chance again














its wht i think of whnevr i come by this place, barren, sparse, lost in t past. nd t dp looks dmn weird whr did my bannr go.

yep i've jst spent wasted anothr day sittg arnd, sighg, puttg my hands up in t air, like i'm totally maximiseg utiliseg my time outta tht fck of a place. howevr, it acty isnt tht bad. thr s alot of interaction between alot of different people in thr, nd sometimes people rly surprise you. things hav definitely gotten bettr since t initial period steppg into tekong, maybe bc maybe, i finally settled in ?, hectic schedules mean takeg my mind off alot of things, nd i cn smell my pink ic. haah a little too early talk yeahh.

earth s dying jst look at t weather. blowg hot nd cold, its lik she's throwg bck evrytg we did t her. you realise hw helpless we are ? fckg homo sapiens thinkg they rule t world biggest best of them all; extra terrestials sniggerg at us through a screen onboard a mothership 124236 times largr thn earth hidden by iCloak, anti-detection system future "eeetttzz timmee to egggzzteerrrmmiinnnaatttteee theemmm errrrrthhllinnnggggzzz"

fck i'm sittg at my com nd its one of those days, lookg at t blue-lit interiors of my cpu through t transparent side panel, i wnaa pull t plug outta myself die fr a few days maybe rid of all t crap tht s fckg me upside dwn smtg lik defragmentg c drive disk cleanup

god

do you guys knw wht 20yrs of age mean ?
its means you'v jst lived 1/3 of yr life nd wtf hav you done ?
mann you're fckg old
i mean look at times long gone are t days people live till ripeold century of an age unless of course you live in t waterfalls deep in japan nd lived on greens yr entire life.
i mean, i dnt mind dying at 60 you get wht i mean ? maybe ill regret wht im sayg in my latr yrs but you agree w me ? its nt worth liveg in this world whr gravity, "gravity" othr thn earth's natural pull, jst pulls you drags you into t ground w each step you take, okay i might regret this life nt liveg wht am i sayg hw far hav i gone

wht hav you done in life ? with, life. i need t sit up nd rethink instead of hateg this nd tht rantg nd rantg. why cnt t world be jst some happy colorful rainbow land whr evryones born w megawatt smiles programmed only w positive attitudes sounds like barbie world lol hw funny wld tht be i needa rethink, or rathr sit dwn nd think fr t first time wht i want in life wht im gng t do w whtevr time i hav left i wna restart but tht will nv happn, so its eithr start soon or nv bc time waits fr no man z tht s frckg hairpullg cliche time wnt wait fr you, neithr will tide lol

did you read thursday's MIND YOUR BODY ? fck its demoraliseg. findg out tht yr neurons start deconnectg itself by late 20s which means you get dumbr slowr stupidr, tht yr ears start failg you start 20, but t most shockg's gt t be t cross section picture of our thigh muscle. you cn cry lookg at t picture.
i dnt wna grow old, i realise its smtg nt one of us here is rdy fr, daresay thought thoroughly nd willg acceptg nd comeg t terms w. i guess it comes w age, furthr maturity. cn you imagine yr parents at t age of 60 ? wht will they look like, hw will they be ?
t fact is age creeps up t us slowly but surely thus as time goes by you take things in yr stride nd learn t grow strong in t presence of any form of weakness.

you nv knw hw detrimental some stuff you put yrself through t things you do t yrself till too late, so evrybdy pls love yrself, take care of yrself, love those arnd you, take good care of them, embrace wht you have, start learng t love life as it is, nd most imptly, be happy for yourself, as well as for those around you.

new sum tink ike tatwascoming,n soi aited.
dit iavensayYESinde pus flace?



我想我还是不够成熟
还达不到 你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念 你走以後

离开 难道真的是解脱
难道 真的要事过境迁了以後才懂

倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头 决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛 假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过 笑着和你挥挥手

如果有一天 我们有缘再见
你会不会想起 说过的永远



you broke yr promise


i jst spent t whole night youtubeg

youtuber are you addictd t youtube ? addiction sounds rly serious. rephrase, are you hookd on youtube ? thn you're a youtubaaholic lmao

anyway i caught almost t entire sequence of JJ's concert, though it being in bits nd pieces nt t mention bad bad audio quality but oh well too bad you paid 2x$128 fr a concert which you dint go :l
but he's good yeah acty i wldnt hav thought of youtube till eug told me abt t concert being a bomb, especially JJ nd fan wei qi's version of 小酒窝
hm yaarhh she certainly brought across a much bettr version, in terms of vocal quality as well as capability, nt sayg ah sa isnt good, jst tht fwq's gt this husky bass voice which cn go rly, i mean rly highhh thus complementg no thus v much compatible w JJ. nddd she brought abt a much more interestg version thn ahsa, but hm its alw t case whn a song gets sung live by a different artiste a different version, it almost alw sounds bettr.

lol but JJ sounded worst thn a wannabe on css whn he sang 只对你有感觉 w BY2 man it was eeks but if JJ cnt sing a particular song, who cn ? only FRH cn boooo
steph nd jodie's been laughg at hw they own us totally evrytime we sing tht song lol nw you knw t problem s w t song, nt us lol srry girls but i totally xx FRH cnt sing cnt dance whaattt ?

but t 重点 fr tdy is, BY2


















mygawdd 17 these year, super sweet vocals mind youu they cn sing, play t piano, violin, but most of all, they've gt da moves yo serious shyt i'm tellg you i mean they're dmn good laaa waahlao only 17 nd alrd kickg jolin's ass who ? jolin ? plss
rlyy i think they're bettr thn jolin wu niang wu niang lao niang lmao

yaarhh so i spent quite awhile watchg them on 百分百, 我猜, 棒棒糖 yadaa nd you knw wht they comeg out w their 2nd album
people are sick tired of lil girls actg cute sweetie pie yii yii voice, these two are singapore's answr t t stereotypd (水蜜桃姐姐 黑社会妹妹 PLS WAKE UP) blaa i sound lik im promoteg them lol but who wna bet w me, 5 years dwn t road these two will be burng up dancefloors lik nobdy s business, provided they dnt grow up ugly lmao k 3 fr startrs t blow you away





i'm seeg double










REDEFINED :D

受不了. what is this world coming to. thankfully there's me only.






















How Does It Feel - Avril Lavigne














COWARD CULLENS